It's been kind of a rough few days. After a few days of struggling with a weird combination of cold/flu, and both sinus and upper respiratory infections for about two weeks, the aid of several types of drugs and a couple thousand tissues has finally proven effective. Today, for the first time, I am able to breathe through my nose again.
Unable to go to work for a few days, I spent a lot of time in the home that we acquired almost a year ago. Still, sinus headaches and congestion that made my eyes tear up like never before kept me from at least being productive with some house chores. The problem with all this spare time is that it leads me to do something people shouldn't do too much... and that is thinking about things they can't change. In my case, these relate to difficulties around my current immigration visa and how it could eventually affect the relationship with my partner. This usually leads me to read every article I can find on advances in immigration reform, bills that will allow gay people to sponsor their partners as heterosexual couples do, gay marriage (like the Prop 8 trial going on) and any jobs that could create a pathway to a greencard. Needless to say, it can be a bit discouraging.
At the same time, I keep looking at the clock hoping my handsome partner will be back from work to keep me company. I eat leftovers from the dinner he prepared the day before, download some music we will both enjoy, and look at a website for ideas on how to decorate the spare bedroom. On that day at around 4:30, he returned home and told me he didn't feel too well. Great. Now it's two of us.
Anyway, at the end of the day I stopped to think about this somewhat dichotomous situation. While people in the senate, the house and many "Christian" organizations are convinced that gay marriage poses a threat to morality in America, I am living out my dream. It is a dream that a few years ago seemed completely impossible. Yet, today I live in a wonderful, committed relationship with the man I love. Everyday we get to know each other better as we build on our relationship. As we spent more and more time together, our tastes, likes and dislikes grow more and more similar. At the same time, it becomes clear that we grew up in very different households, cultures, and well, countries. Our personalities are also very different. However, our strengths and weaknesses even each other out. This all comes together as the most incredible thing happens: we fall more and more in love.
So yes, sometimes I freak out when I think about what the future may hold. Advances or the lack thereof in immigration, gay marriage, gay adoption, and really offensive comments from people that somehow managed to have a say in who I am allowed to marry can be draining. Then again, when I stop to take a breath, listen to my "husband" who is telling me about his day while he is preparing dinner (which by the way smells amazing), I can only say this: I am a lucky man and I'm living my dream.
Unable to go to work for a few days, I spent a lot of time in the home that we acquired almost a year ago. Still, sinus headaches and congestion that made my eyes tear up like never before kept me from at least being productive with some house chores. The problem with all this spare time is that it leads me to do something people shouldn't do too much... and that is thinking about things they can't change. In my case, these relate to difficulties around my current immigration visa and how it could eventually affect the relationship with my partner. This usually leads me to read every article I can find on advances in immigration reform, bills that will allow gay people to sponsor their partners as heterosexual couples do, gay marriage (like the Prop 8 trial going on) and any jobs that could create a pathway to a greencard. Needless to say, it can be a bit discouraging.
At the same time, I keep looking at the clock hoping my handsome partner will be back from work to keep me company. I eat leftovers from the dinner he prepared the day before, download some music we will both enjoy, and look at a website for ideas on how to decorate the spare bedroom. On that day at around 4:30, he returned home and told me he didn't feel too well. Great. Now it's two of us.
Anyway, at the end of the day I stopped to think about this somewhat dichotomous situation. While people in the senate, the house and many "Christian" organizations are convinced that gay marriage poses a threat to morality in America, I am living out my dream. It is a dream that a few years ago seemed completely impossible. Yet, today I live in a wonderful, committed relationship with the man I love. Everyday we get to know each other better as we build on our relationship. As we spent more and more time together, our tastes, likes and dislikes grow more and more similar. At the same time, it becomes clear that we grew up in very different households, cultures, and well, countries. Our personalities are also very different. However, our strengths and weaknesses even each other out. This all comes together as the most incredible thing happens: we fall more and more in love.
So yes, sometimes I freak out when I think about what the future may hold. Advances or the lack thereof in immigration, gay marriage, gay adoption, and really offensive comments from people that somehow managed to have a say in who I am allowed to marry can be draining. Then again, when I stop to take a breath, listen to my "husband" who is telling me about his day while he is preparing dinner (which by the way smells amazing), I can only say this: I am a lucky man and I'm living my dream.
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